Saturday, November 30, 2013

False Accusation of Childhood Sexual Abuse

by Peter Hyatt

With the sexual abuse allegation by a grown woman against her father, there is a need for Statement Analysis.

What if the woman is telling the truth?

What if the father is falsely accused?

What if a therapist is touting a new theory and is playing with lives?

What if a vengeful parent has talked her daughter into making the false claim?

What if it really did, in deed, happen?

Statement Analysis can get to the truth.

I have worked with some fathers who were falsely accused.  Those men who were falsely accused loved their daughters and said things like this:

"I love my daughter.  I did not molest her, touch her, show her porn, or anything like that.  I would never as a father do such things. But someone has.  My daughter needs help.  Please help her!  I will take a polygraph if needed, but please help my daughter."

In spite of fear of being falsely accused and falsely imprisoned, the caring father speaks out due to his love of his daughter, showing that he loves her, more than he loves his own life.

The victim's own statement can be analyzed, knowing that with PTSD like symptoms, some present tense language will be indicated.

The diagnosing psychologist will not only need to get to the truth, but will need to know what actions were taken by the victim. This is because the psychological trauma of child rape, for example, can cause the child to disassociate as the brain protects itself.  The language will seem passive, as if the subject is "watching herself" be abused.

In the case against William Kennedy Smith, there was not a rape, in legal terms, that took place, but the victim's language did, in fact, show that she has been sexually molested in childhood.

When a child is subjected to rape at an early age, you can expect some extreme reactions from her...perhaps not until adolescence, and then again, statistically, in her mid 30's, but you will get reactions:

extreme promiscuity
substance abuse
anorexia
suicidal ideation


In short, you often find victims of early and acute childhood sexual abuse doing one thing well in life, consistently:

destroying her own life.  Later in life, she may be frigid, unable to enjoy intimacy.

The psychologist must know that the actions speak as do the words.

The statement analyst can learn truth from deception, and since the child's brain has an extreme reaction to the abuse (disassociation), the analyst must be very careful to stitch together the language, over time, that the victim's brain is willing to yield, often in small increments.  Whatever word slips out, must be considered highly significant.

One MUST hear.

A child who is sexually abused fears muted her entire life.  That child must have a voice.  This is why I implore therapists to take the SCAN training and put its tools to good use.  I think some of the best therapists are likely intuitive about language, something that would be in agreement with the SCAN technique, and who, when trained, would take to the training without difficulty.

I have had many cases in which the woman was telling the truth, and her history only bore testimony that she had been sexually assaulted in early childhood, interfering with the natural development of the brain.

I have also had cases where the father was falsely accused.  In one case, the victim simply entered into the language of her mother, and when confronted with this, confessed.  I also learned that the mother owed the father money, and had hoped for extortion.

Extortion.

Guilty parties often seek to silence the victim.

A little girl who is sexually assaulted feels muted.  Some will delay speech, and others will grow up incapable of standing up for themselves.

Disassociation through child rape, for example, can lead to a woman incapable of true empathy for others, as they learn to detach from pain.  Often, the only way to get "the story" is to listen for the missing information that SCAN so well identifies...

"The next thing I knew..."

"And so I left."

Readers here know that these are signals of missing information, and jumps in time.

We will look at a series of examples of statements in which sexual abuse was indicated, and we will show when in which the subject was deceptive, and later confessed to the deception.

The falsely accused father, who loves his daughter, will cooperate with the therapist, or police investigation, and the interview will be "team work" to get to the truth.

Due to detachment and disassociation, it can be very difficult to string together a cohesive statement from a victim, but the diagnosis must include external testimony of behavioral interactions.

It is a very tragic outcome, no matter what help is given, and for a moment's perverse "pleasure" by the perpetrator, the woman is given a life sentence of pain; along with all who love her.

Michael McStay Statement Analyzed


A man, his wife, and two children went missing in 2010.  Their remains were found in makeshift graves.  Recently, Michael McStay spoke out.  Readers here have requested analysis of his words.

There is no conclusion to be drawn from this short statement.


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kc27XrRLxuI

 "Good morning, it’s not really the outcome we were looking for. But umm… itgives us courage to know  that they're together and they're in a better place. I know umm (I talked to?) my father, who is in Texas and my Aunt Carol, and um, it’s been a tough road. Um, so we would ask that you would give the family members their space and let us go through the grieving process.  Mm, my family, appreciates all the support and the love that we’ve been shown.  They were a loving family, ...and I know that all of America loves the Mcstays. ...We're gonna find this individual, or individuals and everyone want’s to bring them to justice. ..And if it’s the last thing I do I wanna, I just wanna know ... that you know, ... when it’s over. Umm..(shakes head) that’s all.

Michael McStay was under duress when he spoke these words.  The video appears that he was not reading them. 

When someone is under duress, we recognize that the brain is working rapidly, with high levels of hormones, and choosing its words for the tongue to speak.  It is the words, themselves, that matter to us.  Here it is again, with emphasis added.  This is a short statement and it is that a longer statement, or one in which he recognizes that he may be under suspicion would yield us much more information from which to go on.  


"Good morning, it’s not really the outcome we were looking for. But umm… it gives us courage to know  that they're together and they're in a better place. 


When someone says "it's not really...", using the word "really", there is another thought (at least one) that the subject is thinking.  We do not know what he was thinking here, regarding other outcomes, but their death is worded in a strange way. 

If you found your family dead, would you say "this is not the outcome we were looking for"?  I would.  Yet, I must consider why he did not.  What has taken place in the past few years in conversations with family and with law enforcement?

He can only say that it was not "really" the outcome they were looking for, speaking for himself and others (plural). 

Did this come because the possibility of them being found dead was something they had discussed?  If so, it would have entered into this thinking.  Given the length of time that they had been missing, this possible ending would likely have been discussed many times, including with law enforcement. 

The passage of time will impact language.  His confidence or lack of confidence in law enforcement will impact language. 

The word "but" refutes, even if only in comparison, that which preceded it.  Here, the word "but" enters his vocabulary and it is that this "outcome" now gives them "courage";

what courage?

He answers:  "courage to know" something.  Why would he need courage to know something?

He needed courage to know:

1.  That they were together
2.  They they are in a better place.

Why might someone need courage to know that they were together?

The Expected:  Enter into this from the point of the subject being innocent, possessing no guilty knowledge of their disappearance or death.  Listen for what is expected and when you don't hear it, confront the "unexpected" for analysis. 

If your loved ones were missing, would you worry that they were separated?

I would.  

If your loved ones were found dead, would you need courage to believe that they are in a better place?

I would.  

Both thoughts are comforting to the suffering mind and are not indicative of deception. 


I know umm (I talked to?) my father, who is in Texas and my Aunt Carol, and um, it’s been a tough road. 

This may be a broken sentence, indicating missing information.  It is significant that the change from plural to singular has taken place.  It is personal.  It is important.  I do not know if he intended to say something else here.  He would "know" if he talked to his father and his aunt.  These two people are very important to the subject. 

Um, so we would ask that you would give the family members their space and let us go through the grieving process.  


He returns to "we", as speaking for the family.  This is expected.  

"would ask" is weak, and appropriately polite, likely revealing that he does not expect the media to allow them the space to grieve.  He may have made this request, rather than a demand, to not anger the media.  We all recognize how aggressive media can be. 

Is it the aggressiveness of media that he is thinking of?  Listen to him: 

Mm, my family, appreciates all the support and the love that we’ve been shown.  They were a loving family, ...and I know that all of America loves the Mcstays.


That they "were" a loving family is expected, given the passage of time. 
That America "loves", in the present tense, is also appropriate since he recognizes that this is a very large news story.  

thus far, he has spoken the expected. 

 ...We're gonna find this individual, or individuals 


To call the murderer (s) "this individual" is not expected, nor is "individuals", in the plural. 

Why not, "the killers"?  Why not the "murderers"?

The word "this" indicates closeness.  What has caused this word to enter his language?  Does he have an idea of who might have done this?  (that would make the killer "close").  

Why the soft language?  

If he has called them "killers" or other harsher terms in other statements, freely given, it may be that he has used soft language in an almost defeatist view of law enforcement not finding the murderers.  We do not know. 

and everyone want’s to bring them to justice. 

This statement is utterly unnecessary making it very important.  Why would anyone feel the need to report that "everyone" "wants", that is, has a desire, to bring them to justice?  This should not need to be said. 

This causes me to want to ask many questions about it, and it may be, that through the questions, we learn why. It is only when one may not want the killer brought to justice that the need to say such a thing arises.  This, plus the soft language, concerns me.  


..And if it’s the last thing I do 

This is expected, but only if it is completed.  That he does not complete it is concerning. 

"If its the last thing I do, I will find the killer!" is expected.  

He, however, does not say this, and I cannot say it for him.  Is he exasperated with law enforcement?  


I wanna, I just wanna know ... that you know, ... when it’s over. Umm.. that’s all.

This is also concerning but I must learn why it is concerning.  He wants to know "when it's over"...not when justice has been served?  What has been going on with law enforcement, with hopes raised, hopes dashed, etc.  I am not convinced that this is "unexpected."

Has he had many discussions with law enforcement that he led him to believe that they are so incompetent that this nightmare will never end?  It may be.  

We do not have enough statement to conclude guilty knowledge within this statement, but we have enough to need more information.  It may be that he does not possess guilty knowledge and should suspicion arise, he may speak directly to media and issue a reliable denial, but thus far,

I remain concerned but do not draw a conclusion based upon this statement.  Should Michael McStay be asked by media, we would have much more to go on.  

We do not jump to conclusions, and we recognize that the passage of time will have impact upon the family's reaction, especially if they have been frustrated by law enforcement.  

Wednesday, November 27, 2013

Statement Analysis: SCAMS Defeated by SCAN



If only...

If only that Nigerian prince had contacted me earlier.  I could have given him my account number, let him park a cool 10 million in my account for a week or so, and I would have made $100,000 for nothing!  

If only I was George Anthony.  

It's fascinating and we will be looking at some upcoming ads and fraudulent attempts to steal in the upcoming weeks.  

There's lots of scams attempting to sell dogs..."Please help.  I am a foreign missionary and am going overseas soon, and cannot bring my beloved dog __________ (breed).  I must serve God, therefore, I give him to you for free!  He is champion bloodlines.  You, please, just pay for shipping."

Foreigners are foreign to themselves and do not call themselves such.  Remember, "we are a small foreign faction" that Patsy Ramsey comically wrote in her "ransom" note?

Here's one for you that is almost comically written with English as a second language.  Speaking of languages...

It reminds me of the Chinese joke going around Peking these days:

"What do you call someone who speaks two languages?  Bi-lingual. 
What do you call someone who speaks three languages?  Tri-lingual.
Well, what do you call someone who only speaks one language?

Answer:  American. "



"ATTN MY DEAR 

THIS IS TO BRING TO YOUR NOTICE THAT HAVE REGISTERED YOUR ATM-MASTER CARD WITH THE DHL COURIER COMPANY. AFTER SEVERAL ATTEMPT TO COMMUNICATE YOU PROVED ABORTIVE, I DECIDED TO REGISTER YOUR $2.5 MILLIONS USD (ATM-MASTER CARD) WITH DHL COURIER COMPANY. 

THE DELIVERY CHARGES HAS BEEN PAID BUT I DID NOT PAY THEIR OFFICIAL SECURITY KEEPING FEES SINCE THEY REFUSED. REASONS FOR THEIR REFUSAL WAS BECAUSE THEY DO NOT KNOW WHEN YOU ARE GOING TO CONTACT THEM BECAUSE THE KEEPING FEE IS $55 DOLLARS PER DAY. 

I DEPOSITED IT YESTERDAY 26TH, NOVEMBER 2013.

YOU ARE TO CONTACT THEM NOW TO AVOID INCREASE OF THEIR KEEPING FEE FOR THE IMMEDIATE DELIVERY OF YOUR ATM-MATER CARD 


CONTACTPERSON: REV.DOUGLAS ILECHI
DHL DIRECTOR GENERAL ( GHANA REP)
EMAIL: (dhl_unit.office@sify.com )
EMAIL: (dhl_unit.office@sify.com )

THIS ARE THE INFORMATION REQUIRED FOR EASY DELIVERY OF YOUR ATM-MATER CARD. 

1.YOUR FULL NAME_____
2.YOUR HOME ADDRESS______
3.YOUR HOME AND CELL NUMBER____

MEANWHILE, THE SECURITY KEEPING FEE OF $55 SHOULD BE SET TO THE DHL CASHIER DEPARTMENT WITH THE UNDERSIGNED INFORMATION BELOW AND ONCE I RECEIVE YOUR URGENT REPLY WE SHALL PROVIDE YOU THE INFORMATION WHERE TO SEND US THE $55.


INFORM ME AS SOON AS YOU RECEIVE YOUR CARD DO LET ME KNOW OK 

BEST REGARD AND GOD BLESS 
MRS VERONICA .U "

"I Promise" in Statement Analysis

$500 Curling Iron?

My daughter, Christina and I had an interesting date at our local mall last Saturday.

We went from store to store, window shopping, stopping to allow perfume testers, skin care experts and make up artists practice their craft upon her.  We met some interesting people and had a few laughs while we talked 'shop' with the dedicated followers of beauty, commenting on color coordination, skin tone, and the best products available.

Christina is just shy of 14, and an A+ student in a private school.  She takes her school work seriously, as well as her hobbies.  She loves to read, write, and befriend anyone in need.

                                             She also loves to curl her hair.

We came upon a boutique set up in the mall in which curling irons were being sold. Christina, among other things, loves to catch liars (I know, I know, but she's young, still) and with her love of all things girlie, a boutique selling "very special" curling irons was the ticket.

The salesman was pleasant, but very aggressive.  As some of his sentences contained too many words, I cautioned him, politely, that Christina would catch him. He was unflustered by me, and spoke incessantly, as he used the curling iron to make beautiful curls in her very straight hair.  He said that the curls would need nothing to stay, unlike other curling irons, and said that they would even hold up under water.

"Here, Dad, let me demonstrate.  This is just ordinary tap water.  I promise.  See?" as he sprayed a bit into my hand. "It is just water, H20, nothing but water, I promise."

Christina knows that anything repeated is important, but when one needs to buttress his own words, it is a signal that he is not truthful.

Indeed, the "promise" of being ordinary tap water was true, I whispered to her, but it signals that other things he was saying was not.

"So, how much for this amazing curling iron?" I asked.

He said, "Hmm!  Just a minute.  Now, you know that..." and off he went.

"You avoided the question", I said.  "Now my daughter knows the question is important."

He pointed to the box where it said, "$500" and turned to me and said, "You are a caring father.  For you, this, no this, is just too much.  $250!"

I reached for my cell phone to see if it had an app to jump start my heart.

He said, "Oh, no.  It is not for sale at amazon."

I had not searched Amazon.

"Now, you know, I am not the owner, but here is the owner, and you want to make sure that these curls stay in so in 30 minutes, well actually, the next 29, if you buy it, for you, and only  you, as as a good dad, if you do not tell others, you can have it for $210!"

I said, "You should not have said, "I promise" before."

He said, "But it really is ordinary tap water!"

I said, "yes, but you signaled that you were lying about something else by needing to promise that which I could prove."

He brushed this off and continued to address my daughter directly.  With his back turned to me, I touched my nose to signal Christina that he was caught.

We know each other well.

She looked at me as if to say, "Yes, Dad, I caught him too" and with her eyes, she smiled the smile of recognition.

We said we would walk around for the next half hour and let them know.

"27 minutes!" he said.

The same curling iron, in the same packaging is available at Amazon for $39.

(free shipping, too).

When someone says "I promise", it is often that the person is telling the truth and wants to be believed.  It is the need, however, to use such emphasis that tells you that other things the person said may not be true, and, in fact, should be questioned.

Listening is a skill, like any other, that can be developed and practiced, over time.

Follow pronouns.  Let your ears tingle when you expect to hear "I", yet you hear, "we."

Training investigators can be challenging, but when they are from the private sector, there is often a faster pace to the training.  These are often higher educated, higher paid, and more intent on learning, and can make the class dynamics soar with adrenaline.

Yet, there can still be a heavy stop sign.

A few years ago, I was conducting a class that was going well.  The body language and responses told me that these investigators were "getting it" and moving along well.  There was one, however, who's folded arms suggested otherwise.

She was tense, quiet, but when she did respond, she was intelligent. Yet, there was that disapproving scowl over her face.

Finally, appearing as if she had enough,  she spoke up.

"I just can't buy into this Statement Analysis thing.  Oh yeah, a lot makes sense, but this one area really bothers me", she said.

"What is that?" I asked.

I had warned them, early on Day One, that they would be tempted to use the sentence, "Statement Analysis does not work because I..."

I told them that in dealing with statistics, if we say something is "80% likely" that they may fall into the 20% category and want to dismiss analysis based upon their own experience in life, in one particular area.  I cautioned them to note that pronoun, "I" in their objection.

This investigator, intelligent as she was, could not.

"Well, this whole thing about someone saying, 'I swear to God, I promise, Honest to God, I swear on my mother's grave' is just not true."

"How do you know it is not true?" I asked.

"I know it is not true because my sister and I.  We are very close.  For more than 30 years we have had this rule since we were kids.  If we say 'I swear to God' we are not allowed to lie to each other.  When we say "I swear to God', we do not lie to each other.  It has been like this for more than 30 years, since we were little."

I stood silently as the class was utterly silent in waiting for my response.

I held my peace.

Slowly, with just one or two at first, signals of recognition came across faces, and then cracks of smiles.

Attendees looked at one another, some seeing the smiles and understanding, while others searching the faces for understanding.

Then the chuckles started, and then...

the laughter.

The now embarrassed investigator still did not understand.

"You just proved Statement Analysis" I said to her.

She was neither amused nor did her face show recognition.  Later, I overheard someone explain to her that she just admitted that she and her sister lied to each other with impunity, but when they used the oath, they could not follow their norm of lying.

To this date, I do not know if she ever 'got it' but I have my hopes and my illusions in tact.


Tuesday, November 26, 2013

Man Convicted of Killing Seeks New Trial

Man convicted of 1990 killing of U.S. Open fan seeks new trial 

Attorneys for Johnny Hincapie are asking for a new trial in his decades-old case. He was one of eight people originally arrested for the vicious subway slashing of tourist Brian Watkins, who was in town with his family for the U.S. Open on Sept. 2, 1990, as they headed to Greenwich Village for a post-match dinner.

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JEFFERSON SIEGEL/NEW YORK DAILY NEWS

The family of Johnny Hincapie (left to right) brother Alejandro Hincapie, father Carlos Hincapie and mother Maria Hincapie gathered outside Manhattan Supreme Court, where their lawyer announced he was seeking a new trial to overturn Hincapie’s wrongful conviction for the 1990 murder of Utah tourist Brian Watkins.

A 41-year-old man has been wrongly imprisoned for more than two decades in the notorious 1990 slaying of a tennis fan from Utah, his lawyers charged Monday.
Attorneys for Johnny Hincapie are asking for a new trial in his decades-old case. He was one of eight people originally arrested for the vicious subway slashing of tourist Brian Watkins, who was in town with his family for the U.S. Open on Sept. 2, 1990, as they headed to Greenwich Village for a post-match dinner.
Watkins, 22, was fatally stabbed in the chest while trying to protect his mother from a pack of teen muggers trying to get money to pay cover at a Roseland Ballroom show, where a larger group was headed to see a popular DJ.
"While Johnny did not play any part in the mugging, he was with the larger group of teenagers who went dancing at Roseland," according to a 51-page motion filed in Manhattan Supreme Court by lawyers Ron Kuby and Leah Busby.
Warren Buffett (right) poses with Johnny Hincapie, who was convicted of the 1990 murder of Utah tourist Brian Watkins.Hincapie's lawyers are seeking a new trial to overturn the conviction.

Warren Buffett (right) poses with Johnny Hincapie, who was convicted of the 1990 murder of Utah tourist Brian Watkins.Hincapie's lawyers are seeking a new trial to overturn the conviction.

The killing at the W. 53rd and Seventh Ave. E train station "shocked and outraged New York" and "was one of those terrible crimes that seemed to define New York City at that time," Kuby said outside the main Manhattan criminal courts building Monday.

"The police and the public reacted with notable and understandable outrage. The last victim in the Brian Watkins case, however, is Johnny Hincapie," he added.
Hincapie and friends were headed to the club for a popular DJ and Kuby and Busby say he was at the station but not on the platform where the former high school tennis star was murdered -- a claim recently reinforced by Luis Montero, whose own charges were dismissed more than a year after he was arrested in the case.
The Manhattan subway station where Brian Watkins was killed.

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The Manhattan subway station where Brian Watkins was killed.

"Johnny was ahead of me on the stairs as I was running up the steps," Montero wrote in an affidavit that accompanied the motion. "Johnny couldn't have had nothing to do with the crime. He wasn't here. I saw him on the electric stairs while the crime was happening."
Hincapie and his team said his confession came only after a browbeating by cops eager to make collars in the era of the crack epidemic and high-profile crimes like the Central Park jogger rape.
"After a long silent pause, Detective (Ronald) Casey said that if I wanted to go home that I had to memorize a story that was to my benefit. That if I did, he would have me driven back home immediately," Hincapie wrote in a statement.

Utah tennis fan Brian Watkins, shown in this undated file photo. Watkins was fatally stabbed on a New York subway platform while defending his mother in 1990.

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Utah tennis fan Brian Watkins, shown in this undated file photo. Watkins was fatally stabbed on a New York subway platform while defending his mother in 1990.

"I asked, 'If my attorney was here, what would he say about me memorizing a story?' He then said that my attorney would tell me to do likewise."'
Hincapie said he was "feeling extremely scared" and was "confused" by the cop's representation that a confession would be his ticket home.
"I proceeded to explicate what had transpired during the evening of the incident and that the first time I found out anything concerning a crime with someone dying in the subway station was while watching the news."
Note the use of "explicate" in his statement 
He later repeated the story to a prosecutor from the Manhattan district attorney's office.
The Daily News frontpage, Tuesday, Sept. 4, 1990, reporting the arrests in the Watkins killing.

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The Daily News frontpage, Tuesday, Sept. 4, 1990, reporting the arrests in the Watkins killing.

"I wanted to tell her everything I said was a lie. That Detective Casey made me memorize it and repeat it to everyone, but I was scared of Casey and said nothing," he said.
Note that he "wanted" to tell her everything.  Note also the word "memorize" as to the above quoted word.  

Another defendant in the case, Ricardo Lopez, told authorities Hincapie was not present for the robbery, but the statement was not allowed at his trial.
Hincapie, who is at Fishkill Correctional Facility in Beacon, N.Y., has earned his master's degree while in prison. He's serving a 25-years-to-life sentence.
The family of Johnny Hincapie (foreground, left to right) brother Alejandro Hincapie, father Carlos Hincapie and mother Maria Hincapie, gather outside Manhattan Supreme Court, where their lawyer Ron Kuby announced he was seeking a new trial to overturn the murder conviction.

JEFFERSON SIEGEL/NEW YORK DAILY NEWS

The family of Johnny Hincapie (foreground, left to right) brother Alejandro Hincapie, father Carlos Hincapie and mother Maria Hincapie, gather outside Manhattan Supreme Court, where their lawyer Ron Kuby announced he was seeking a new trial to overturn the murder conviction.

"We’re just all very happy that the truth is finally coming out. It's been a struggle," said Hincapie's brother Alex, 38.
What hindered the truth from coming out previously?
Hincapie was an 18-year-old senior at Bayside High School in Queens and was an aspiring dancer at the time of Watkins' murder.
His mother, Maria, described him as "full of joy and love" and said he's "been supporting us from prison, helping us to keep living, keep believing."
The Manhattan district attorney’s office is reviewing the motion and did not have an immediate comment.

Dr. Conrad Murray Speaks Out

Conrad Murray’s voice softens when he recalls the moment Michael Jackson reached out, clasped his hand and said in his soft falsetto voice: ‘There are only four people in my family now. Paris, Prince, Blanket and you, Dr Conrad.’

It was, the 60-year-old doctor recalls: ‘one of the happiest days of my life. This man who had been so lonely, who had spent so many  long nights telling me about his pain and anguish, finally felt he could trust someone in his life apart from his children.
‘We were family. We loved each other as brothers.’
Unrepentant: Dr Conrad Murray speaks during his first interview after serving half of his four-and-a-half-year jailterm after being convicted of killing Michael Jackson
Unrepentant: Dr Conrad Murray speaks during his first interview after serving half of his four-and-a-half-year jailterm following his conviction of killing Michael Jackson
The remarkable exchange took place in Jackson’s private suite of five rooms on the second floor of his rented £60,000-a-month Beverly Hills mansion. It was an area closed to all except the singer’s three children and Dr Murray – his personal physician and private confidante.

    Murray says: ‘Michael trusted no one. The bed chamber smelled because he did not even let maids in there to clean. There were clothes strewn everywhere.
    ‘Then he looked at me and said, “You know, for the rest of your life and my life our names will become inseparable.
    ‘I asked him, “Michael, what do you mean?” and he smiled and said, “I am clairvoyant.” ’
    King of Pop: Michael Jackson, pictured in March 2009, died in June the same year of acute propofol and benzodiazepine intoxication following a cardiac arrest in his home Neverland
    King of Pop: Michael Jackson, pictured in March 2009, died in June the same year of acute propofol and benzodiazepine intoxication following a cardiac arrest in his home Neverland
    Maybe he was. This brief but intense relationship has all but destroyed Murray’s life and almost certainly defines it.

    The heart surgeon, released from prison three weeks ago after serving half of a four-year sentence for killing pop superstar Jackson with an overdose of intravenous sedative, maintains he was not responsible for Jackson’s tragic death.

    And, in his first-ever interview, he remains unrepentant. ‘I never gave Michael anything that would kill him,’ he says tersely. ‘I loved him. I still do. I always will.’

    At a bulky 6ft 5in, Murray is a bear of a man, though he claims to have lost more than two stone in prison and says he feels ‘every one of my 60 years’. Despite his public disgrace, he has huge charm and the self-assured authority – some might say bombast – of a physician whose lucrative private practice turned over more than £2.3 million a year.

    Jackson’s prediction to the doctor was, indeed, prophetic.

    Two weeks after their moving conversation, Murray stood over the singer’s skeletal body as his friend lay dead on a metal trolley in a hospital emergency room. 

    And in what he now calls the ‘utter nightmare’ that followed the King of Pop’s death, Murray was charged with giving the lethal injection of the anaesthetic propofol that caused Jackson’s heart to stop, found guilty of involuntary manslaughter, stripped of his medical licence and sentenced to four years in jail.

    In a vivid and compelling exclusive interview with The Mail on Sunday, Murray opens what he calls the ‘floodgates of pain’ as he talks for the first time about his intimate friendship with Jackson: ‘You want to know how close we were? I held his penis every night to fit a catheter because he was incontinent at night.’ 

    HOW I TOLD THE CHILDREN THAT THEIR FATHER WAS DEAD

    ‘I found out the kids were at the hospital, they were in a room having pizza.
    ‘I called for a team of psychiatrists. We spoke briefly about whether, if the children wanted it, it would be OK for them to see their father? I walked into the room. Paris looked at me and said, “Daddy’s dead?” I said, “Yes.”
    ‘The children wailed. Paris cried, “I don’t want to be an orphan! I don’t want to be an orphan!” Mrs Jackson was there, La Toya was there, Jermaine was there, but I thought they acted cold.
    ‘I was so worried about those children, they had no relationship with their mother. I didn’t know what to do. But Paris is a remarkable child. I have never seen such mettle in a child that age.
    ‘On the day he died, she sought me out in the corridor. I felt as if Michael was talking through her. She said, “My daddy died today. I know you did everything you could. If he didn’t survive I know it’s not because you didn’t do everything you could.”
    ‘It breaks my heart that those children are now without the one person who loved them more than anything.
    ‘I loved those children. I would love to sit down with them and tell them how much I cared for their father but I worry that their minds have been poisoned against me.’
    For more than five hours, in a voice still thick with the lilting  tones of his native Trinidad, in a faceless hotel room in southern California he tells about Michael’s perilous physical, mental and financial state and the singer’s secret addiction to prescription drugs.
    And he describes in shocking detail the full horror of Jackson’s physical and mental descent ‘into the abyss’ as he fought to cope with the pressure of preparing for his This Is It comeback concerts at  London’s O2 arena: ‘By the end, Michael Jackson was a broken man.
    'I tried to protect him but instead I was brought down with him.’ Most poignantly, he talks about the tragic events of June 25, 2009, the last day of Michael’s Jackson’s life.
    It is clearly a subject he still finds distressing. Murray’s eyes fill with tears. ‘This is so painful,’ he says stifling a sob.

    ‘It’s difficult when you ask me about Michael. There’s a void in my heart, a lingering pain. I miss him every day.’

    Murray says that when he first began working with Jackson in 2006, he had no idea that the superstar used propofol to help him sleep.
    But when he arrived in LA three years later to help him prepare for his comeback, he discovered that Michael had a personal stash of it.

    He told me there were doctors in Germany that gave it to him. I didn’t agree with this at all, but Michael wasn’t the kind of man you can say no to. He would always find a way.
    ‘So I acquired propofol and gave it to him over a two-and-a-half month period as I weaned him off it, which I finally achieved three days before he died.
    ‘He begged me for the drug because he wanted to sleep, because then he didn’t have to think. He was in crisis at the end of his life, filled with panic and misery.
    ‘I would sit with him when he  was on a propofol drip. It’s a very fast-acting drug that disappears  from the body quickly. Fifteen minutes after the drug is administered, it’s gone. I gave him very light,  light sedation.’

    Surely, I ask, as a doctor who has sworn the Hippocratic Oath he had a duty of care to cause no harm to his patient? Surely, giving an addict the drug he craves broke every basic rule of care?

    Murray’s demeanour changes. His body tenses and he glares at me:  ‘I would never have recommended propofol to Michael. 
    'But when I  got there he was on it – he called it “milk” – and he needed to get off it. I wanted to help my friend.
    ‘Michael was not addicted to propofol but I’ve since discovered he was addicted to other drugs, given to him by other doctors and which I was not aware of.’

    Jackson, he insists, ‘was in a  terrible state’. His 5ft 11in frame had wasted away to little over nine stone, he was suffering from chills, insomnia and mood swings.

    He would turn up to rehearsals late and complained to Murray his performance was ‘never more than 60 per cent’.

    ‘Michael was a decrepit man. He was frail. I had to force him to eat, to drink fluids. He always ate the same meal: rice and chicken.
    ‘He was under enormous pressure. The children told him they were tired of living in hotels and rented places, but Michael was broke.
    Intimate talks: Dr Conrad Murray met exclusively with The Mail On Sunday following his release from prison
    Intimate talks: Dr Conrad Murray met exclusively with The Mail On Sunday following his release from prison
    'I am innocent': Dr Conrad Murray, seen arriving to his trial in 2011, claims he had nothing to do with Michael Jackson's death, despite being convicted
    'I am innocent': Dr Conrad Murray, seen arriving to his trial in 2011, claims he had nothing to do with Michael Jackson's death, despite being convicted
    He told me his only major asset, his ownership of the Beatles back catalogue of songs, had been “mortgaged up to the hilt”. 
    'He wanted to do the London shows and then buy a family home, probably in Vegas. But night after night he would tell me he didn’t feel he had the capacity to do it. He said, “They are working me like a machine”.
    Murray claims executives from the London concert promoters AEG threatened his friend – a charge AEG denied in court.
    ‘They came to the house. They said, “This house – we pay for it.  The popsicles the children are sucking on – we pay for them. 
    "The nine security guards, we pay for them too. We pay for the toilet paper he wipes his a** on. 
    "If he doesn’t do these shows it’s over. He’s ruined. He doesn’t have a cent. He will be on Skid Row.” ’
    On the day he died, the singer returned home from rehearsals at around 1am. 
    Murray says: ‘He was hysterical. He was begging me, “Please Dr Conrad, I need some milk so I can sleep.”
    ‘This went on for hours. I believe his insomnia that night was caused by withdrawal from demerol.’

    MICHAEL'S DEATH WISH

    ‘We talked about death and dying. Michael told me he wanted to be cremated and scattered somewhere nice and warm, and we talked about the coral reef off the Turks and Caicos Islands. 
    ‘He hated California because of the two child sex cases against him. His family ended up putting him in Forest Lawn Cemetery  in Los Angeles.’
    Murray has filed an appeal against his conviction claiming, among other things, that another doctor had been giving Jackson vast amounts of demerol – an analgesic better known in this country as pethidine – without his knowledge.
    His contention – made public now for the first time – is that Jackson was withdrawing from demerol on the night he died and that, when Murray was out of the room, the singer got up and injected himself with a lethal dose of propofol after Murray refused to give him the amount he had asked for.
    He  explains: ‘I had no idea Michael was getting demerol, which he had grown to love over several decades.
    ‘I’ve used demerol in the emergency room. The maximum is 75mg that I would use. Michael was receiving as much as 300mg several times a week.
    ‘That night he just couldn’t sleep. I prescribed him drugs to help, including valium and lorazepam, but he was begging, pleading, close to tears. “I want sleep, please Dr Conrad, I need sleep.”
    ‘I told him, “This is not normal. What I’ve given you would put an elephant to sleep”.
    ‘In the other bedroom [Michael’s private chamber], the police found an open bottle of lorazepam [an anti-anxiety drug]. They found tablets in his stomach. I didn’t give him those. Michael took extra tablets. And he injected himself.’
    Murray vehemently denies the claim by the prosecution in court that he placed Jackson on a propofol drip and left the room.
    Instead, he says he ‘reluctantly’ gave the star a 25mg propofol injection, a ‘minuscule’ amount that would wear off in ten minutes, and sat by Jackson’s bedside for more than half an hour as the singer finally drifted off to sleep.
    ‘I received a phone call at 11.07am, and when I left Michael at 11.20am, he had a normal heartbeat, his vital signs were good.
    ‘I left the room because I didn’t want to disturb him.
    ‘I believe he woke up, got hold  of his own stash of propofol and injected himself. He did it too quickly and went into cardiac arrest.
    Real mother: Michael Jackson said several times that he felt closer to Elizabeth Taylor than his own mother Katherine
    Real mother: Michael Jackson said several times that he felt closer to Elizabeth Taylor than mum Katherine
    Tragedy: Picture shown in court of Jackson¿s body in hospital during Dr Murray's trial
    Tragedy: Picture shown in court of Jackson¿s body in hospital during Dr Murray's trial
    ‘When I came back in the room I knew instantly he wasn’t breathing. I didn’t panic. I felt and tried to  get a pulse. I tried the groin and the carotid artery. There was no pulse. I immediately started CPR. I’ve resuscitated thousands of people. This was my friend but I went into medical mode.’
    In court, Murray was slammed by medical experts for not calling the emergency number 911 immediately, and for performing CPR on Jackson while he lay on the bed instead of moving him to the floor.  ‘I am a trained cardiac specialist, this is what I do,’ Murray insisted. ‘The bed was hard and Michael was slim. I have big hands. I placed a hand behind him and immediately started chest compressions.
    ‘The chances were not hopeless. I could only have hope. I wanted my friend to make it.
    When Jackson’s head of security failed to answer his phone, Murray ran downstairs to scream for help. A bodyguard raced into the room.
    ‘When paramedics came and they moved him to the foot of the bed they did precisely what I was trying to avoid. He had a saline intravenous in his leg and this was dislodged. It took them 25 minutes to put in a new one. He got a tube down his trachea. Someone kept pumping his chest.’
    Even after an emergency crew arrived, Dr Murray refused to give up on his friend, riding in the ambulance with him to nearby UCLA Medical Center.
    ‘I worked on him the whole way.  I wanted a sign of life. I couldn’t give up. I save people. I’m a heart doctor. It’s what I do. I wanted Michael back.

    'HE JOKED ABOUT HAVING SEX WITH DEBBIE ROWE'

    Dr Murray claims that he and Michael spoke about the parentage of the children, and even suggests that they have three different fathers.
    ‘None of them are Michael’s biological children,’ he says. ‘Michael told me he never slept with Debbie Rowe [the biological mother of Prince and Paris]. We joked that neither of us would want to have sex with her.
    ‘He chose friends or business colleagues to help him. He told me he wanted to sever any genetic link to his family.’
    What about Oliver actor Mark Lester’s claims that he is the father of at least one of the children?
    Murray says: ‘I will not talk about this. If the children want to know,  I will tell them.
    ‘There are some secrets I will take to my grave.’
    ‘At the hospital, he had electrical activity. The heart was getting stimulation but the heart was not strong enough to get a pulse. He hadn’t  flatlined. 
    'There was mild cardiac activity demonstrated on two echo-cardiograms. It was weakly contracting but not generating a pulse that was enough to generate life.
    ‘I was in the emergency room, watching. They tried for an hour before they called it.’
    Jackson was pronounced dead  at 2.26pm.
    ‘He was 50 years old. It was just horrible. He was so young.’ Murray buries his head in his hands. ‘It was so terrible.’ Tears begin rolling down his cheeks. ‘It was so sad.’
    Murray says he then had the task of telling Jackson’s children that their father had died – after taking the advice of hospital psychiatrists.
    ‘I walked into the room. Paris looked at me and said, “Daddy’s dead?” I said, “Yes”.  
    ‘The children wailed. Paris cried, “I don’t want to be an orphan! I don’t want to be an orphan!”
    ‘Mrs Jackson was there, La Toya was there, Jermaine was there.’
    The unlikely pairing of Jackson, the child pop star from Gary, Indiana, and Murray, the dirt-poor maid’s son from the British West Indies, began in 2006 when Jackson  took a temporary home in Vegas.
    Murray, who had practices in Las Vegas and Houston, explains: ‘I had treated the father of one of his bodyguards. Michael’s children were sick, as was he, with a viral flu infection. I went to the house and gave Michael hydration with what we call a “banana bag”, a bag of saline with added vitamins.
    ‘I placed the IV in his arm and he said, “You are very skilful at that.”  I replied, “That’s what I do.” ’
    The doctor retains the affable bedside manner and easy charm that  no doubt attracted Jackson; a man who by his own admission preferred the company of children to adults ‘because they are the only ones who don’t seek to take advantage’.
    Murray is a self-confessed flirt (who has fathered seven children with six different women) and says with a grin: ‘I’ve never smoked a cigarette in my life. I don’t drink and I’ve never taken illicit drugs. My only weakness is a pretty face.’
    Not his: Dr Murray says he knows Michael Jackson is not the biological father to any of his three children and that he never had sex with Debbie Rowe, mother of Prince Michael and Paris
    Not his: Dr Murray says he knows Michael Jackson is not the biological father to any of his three children and that he never had sex with Debbie Rowe, mother of Prince Michael and Paris
    Left behind: Michael Jackson's children Prince Michael, Blanket and Paris did not believe Dr Murray killed their father, he claims
    Left behind: Michael Jackson's children Prince Michael, Blanket and Paris did not believe Dr Murray killed their father, he claims

    The friendship developed rapidly. Jackson, smarting from his second child sex abuse trial in 2005 and vowing never to set foot again in his Neverland Estate, trusted no one.
    ‘Michael lived like a recluse with his children. He was a prisoner of whatever home he was in,’ Murray says. ‘In the beginning we talked a lot about medicine. He was fascinated by human anomalies and congenital malformations. He was obsessed by the Elephant Man.
    ‘I gave him a book called the  Idiot’s Guide To The Body. He wanted to know everything: how many heart attack patients had I treated that day, what happens when someone flatlines .  .  .

    ‘He told me other doctors hadn’t been discreet. They would gossip about him.
    ‘He liked me because I wasn’t starstruck. The children loved me. We shared similar backgrounds.

    ‘He had a very unhappy childhood and was beaten and abused by his father. I came from poverty and didn’t meet my father until I was 25. We were both forgotten little boys.
    ‘Michael had a lot of lingering pain. He would sing the song The Little Boy Who Santa Claus Forgot to me and say, “That’s our song.”

    ‘As he grew to trust me he had someone to share his load. I was the keeper of his secrets.
    ‘I protected him. I am only  speaking now because I have been unfairly vilified.’

    Murray says Jackson often spoke of his loathing for his father Joe, who both physically and emotionally abused him as a child.

    He accused  his mother Katherine of being equally to blame ‘because she did nothing’ to stop the years  of abuse at the hands of his family and others.

    ‘He told me he believed he had been sexually assaulted by one  doctor while he had been under sedation. You name it, he had experienced it.

    Murray says that for the first two-and-a-half years of their friendship he treated the family for ‘minor  ailments’ which included Jackson’s insomnia, and administered skin whitening cream to give him the ‘porcelain’ skin he craved.

    The doctor rubbed cream into the pop star’s back and bathed his feet.
    ‘He transformed himself because he wanted to obscure where he came from. He wanted to look different from his family.

    ‘He wanted porcelain, flawless skin. Those were his words.’

    Murray insists he had no idea the star was a prescription drug addict.
    He says: ‘I confronted him only once. His veins were in a terrible state. I said, “Michael, I have never seen arms with such veins except in a drug addict.”

    ‘He looked back at me with big eyes and said, “Really, Dr Conrad?” I never asked again.


    Perhaps I was naive, but I genuinely had no idea until I went to live with him. The Michael I knew in private was very different from the public image.
    ‘He wasn’t a pretentious man. At home he mostly wore pyjamas and the same pair of old black leather slip-on shoes.

    ‘He was always running out of underwear. He wore white cotton briefs but would never let the maids in his room because he feared they would steal from him.

    ‘One of his famous white gloves lay on the floor for weeks. I kept walking around it. He told me, “If I let a maid in that glove would be gone.” ’

    Murray says that their friendship flourished through simple acts  of kindness.
    ‘Michael never had anyone who cared for him. I asked him why he always wore socks. He showed me his feet. They were terrible. Fungus had penetrated into the skin. He had calluses that went all the way to the bone. He was in agonising pain.’

    After Murray healed Jackson’s feet the grateful singer taught him to moonwalk in the kitchen as a thank you.
    Murray also assisted his friend in a more intimate way: ‘He wore dark trousers all the time because after he went to the toilet he would drip for hours.

    ‘You want to know how close Michael and I were? I held his penis every night. I had to put a condom catheter on him because Michael dripped urine. He had a loss of sensation and was incontinent.

    ‘Michael didn’t know how to put a condom on, so I had to do it for him.
    ‘His room smelled terrible. I  told him, “Michael you can’t live  this way, we have to get the maids in to clean the bedding.” Reluctantly, he agreed.

    ELIZABETH TAYLOR WAS MICHAEL'S 'REAL' MUM

    ‘Michael told me that Liz Taylor was more of a mother to him than Katherine ever was.
    ‘His father Joe Jackson was one of the destroyers of Michael, and Michael told me his mother was  an enabler.
    ‘The Jacksons only ever wanted money from him. Three weeks before Michael died, Joe turned up at the house and was pummelling on the gate wanting Michael to sign an agreement for a pay-per-view television show for the Return Of The Jackson 5.
    ‘Michael said to me, “I’m not in the Jackson 5. That’s a thing of the past. I don’t want to be a bank for my family any longer.”
    ‘Michael loved movies and Fred Astaire and Ginger Rogers. We sat and watched every single Bond movie there was.’
    ‘It was the most intimate thing but he trusted me. I was a doctor, so that sort of thing didn’t bother me.’

    Murray says that Jackson ‘constantly’ begged him to work for  him full-time. He says he rejected the advances because his practice was turning over more than £2.3 million a year.
    But then Jackson agreed to the This Is It concerts at London’s  O2 Arena starting in the summer  of 2009.
    The 100 shows were guaranteed  to pull him out of debt and earn him a minimum of £200 million.
    ‘He begged me to go with him to England to look after him and the children. He said he felt as if he might have a heart attack.
    ‘The stress was terrible. The insomnia was bad. He was decrepit, wasted. He was breaking down.
    ‘Physically and emotionally he couldn’t cope. He wasn’t looking  forward to going to London.
    ‘He also had a hip condition, where the hip bone comes out of the socket. Michael wanted to know if I could arrange a hip replacement.
    ‘He was worried, too, that the  promoters wouldn’t keep their promise to make four films with him after the concerts.
    ‘The first one was going to be Thriller in 3D. He didn’t trust AEG. He called the executives snakes.’
    Much has been made of the £100,000-a-month salary that Jackson agreed to pay Murray to go to London for a year.
    But he says it was never about  the money.

    ‘I never saw a penny. Not one dime. I agreed because Michael told me I’d meet kings and queens and all sorts of people I’d never get a chance to meet.
    ‘My motivation was to help my friend and to have a break.
    ‘We had already picked out houses. Michael had his place in the country and my house was down the road from his.’

    Dr Murray never did get to meet kings and queens and live in the English countryside.
    Instead, he now travels everywhere with bodyguards and refuses to reveal where he  is living because of death threats from grieving fans who have dubbed him Dr Death and Conrad Murderer.

    It is a charge he earnestly and steadfastly denies.
    When you hear him speak you are left in no doubt that, whether or not he  is telling the truth about what happened that night, he believes wholeheartedly in his own innocence.
    I did not kill Michael Jackson. He was a drug addict.
    ‘Michael Jackson accidentally killed Michael Jackson.